A very important man died today. I am sure the world will go on without him but it will be a less kind and friendly place now that he is gone. I can't state how important he was to me. Without him I wouldn't be the man that I am in all the good aspects. I don't know how to react to it. I know that I shouldn't be sad. I can't help but feel I would have liked to hear him talk one more time. He took care of me; I don't know if he knew it, he kept me from losing my humanity at times when it would have been easy and sometimes understood for me to throw it away for a moment. He reminded me that no matter how complex life gets the answers are always simple. That being a strong man in these times means that you are a soft human being. My life compared to his and what he would have expected of me would probably be a shortcoming. I can't but thank him though for letting me know where the bar was set and that it was that high.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Random Road Thoughts
I've had a moment now after my vacation to think about what kind of person I have become. I've really been neglecting being introspective. One way to catch up on who you are is a long road trip, alone. I had the opportunity to drive from Utah to Seattle so I could have my vehicle shipped to Alaska. I didn't do much thinking about myself as I normally do when presented with such an opportunity, but I did notice a lot of things that I have been affected by. I watch Futurama quit a bit and one of the sayings goes, "You watched it now you can't unwatch it!" There is an interesting concept in that phrase. Once you take something in the mind you really can't undo what it did. Now this doesn't hold true for some things, but it does for law school. As I was crossing the Utah border entering Idaho; do you know what thought entered my mind? It wasn't oh I'm entering a new state, or I wonder what different radio stations I'll encounter, or does the speed limit change here, or does this mean I'll get some different scenery. I thought I'm entering a new jurisdiction and body of law. I realized I will never be normal when compared to the rest of society.
When traveling through a section of one unnamed state I thought, "Man the radio music sucks here." I then did another seek on the radio. I found a station to my liking. It played two songs in a row that I really liked. Then it got a little strange, the station then played a little Radio Head. I was thinking that this was a strange mix as I got two classic rock songs and then Radio Head. I kept listening out of pure fascination. Would you know it the Shins came on the air. Nobody plays The Shins, let alone in a lineup that has Radio Head and two really good classic rock songs. I was thinking I discovered pure gold. I couldn't wait for the next song. To my surprise they played one of my favorite rap songs of all time. That's when I realized it wasn't a radio station but just my ipod broadcasting.
